Its worth the wait

Love is waiting 'till we're ready, 'till its right. 

I will wait for you and I will know you because when you speak, I will be reminded of Solomon's wisdom. Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses. Your faith will remind me of Abraham. Your confidence in God's Word will remind me of Daniel. Your inspiration will remind me of Paul. Your heart for God will remind me of David. Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah. Your integrity will remind me of Joseph and your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples. But your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally will remind me of Christ. 

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And you will know me and you will find me where the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth. Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary which is engulfed with the tears of a praying Hannah. I will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31, waiting for you.

But to my Father, who has known me before I was birthed into this earth, only if You should see fit. I desire Your will above mine so even if You call me to a life of singleness, my heart is content with You. You are the greatest love story ever told, the greatest love ever known. You are forever my judge and I am forever your witness. And I pray that I am always found on a mission about my Father's business. I will always be Yours and I will always wait for you Lord. More than the watchmen wait for the morning, more than the watchmen wait for the morning, I will wait.

This is not yet my season says God and I don't want to rush things and go ahead of Him. I don't want to go ahead of my Father. I want Him to be the one who directs my steps to the right path. I want to lead my life and I don't want my own ways but His ways. Because I know that His ways are always the best.

For now, I want to serve my God with all I am. I want to be molded by the King.. to be the woman that He wants me to be. Just like any other Christian women, I would wait for God and pray for the other. I pray that whoever he is, he's alright. I pray that he's getting things right with Him. I pray that whoever that man is, he's praying for me too. I know in this waiting time, he will be tempted to look away but I pray that he will be strong enough to resist temptations knowing that he is soaked in God's Word. Not wandering away just because of boredom, tired of the wait. I pray that he will wait for God's perfect timing. I pray that he have his eyes on you Father, focusing on You alone. I pray that God will continue to strengthen him everyday. I pray that he is growing and serving you, making this waiting season fruitful. 

'Cause I know when the right time comes, everything will be so perfect, so beautiful. Its all worth the wait. Knowing that I have a God who is faithful, I believe that these pain will soon be all worth it. I may not understand right now but I know that He is faithful, forever and always. 

Dream

There's this dream of mine I had killed not so long ago but I guess its not so bad to pursue it again right? I haven't shared this to my friends in the Philippines. Back home, almost everyone knew what I wanted to be. 

I guess it not bad to pursue modelling again right? Back in high school, I didn't really liked it. It only started when my mom convinced me to join a beauty pageant. I passed the audition and during the process of preparing for the big night, I did a lot of modelling stuffs. It was 2 months of training so a lot of things happened in the process. I did appear in a fashion magazine. I did win as a muse for a few known basketball teams in my hometown. I did modelling for some small events. Those were the times I had come to realize that this is one of the things I want to do. Yes, I won in a few pageants and of course, I did not put my security to the decision of the judges.  My security was and is still with Christ alone.

Before joining the pageant, I was over 60 kilos. I was heavy for a girl, wasn't it? But yeah, during the process I lost weight a lot and I weighed around 43 kilos. I was too thin for a tall girl like me. (Now I weigh around 48 kilos hahaha I gained weight I know.)

Recently, when I came to Philippines. I was surprised with the eating habits of the people. I mean it in a good way. Back in high school, I was not really fond of eating rice. I learned to eat those when I got into college when my friends usually do so. I was depressed as well during my first months of stay here in the Philippines so apparently I gained weight. I killed that dream of mine because I thought that I'm not really something meant for that. I killed every desire of modelling in my heart. I keep telling myself I wasn't meant for it.

But one time,  when I was talking to God. He wasn't laughing at me all the while. All this time, I thought having those kinds of dreams were foolish but I stand corrected. 

Psalms 27:4  Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

 It wasn't really foolish after all. It will still not be my priority in any ways. My priority will always be serving God in all my days. It is just one of the dreams I want to pursue someday. And now, I'm on a trap in my school block since they are looking for a representative in Ms. PAN (Philippine Association of Nutrition) pageant. Without my permission, they wrote me down. I don't know how to get out. I don't know how will I react. But anyway, whatever happens, it is still Him to be glorified. 

18th of August

This Saturday is my 18th birthday and still.. I'm totally clueless on how will I celebrate that day. I still don't know what to do. Its just.. hard to plan and sort things out with out my family. I wanted all along to celebrate my birthday with them but since I'm here and they're abroad. Its no near possible. But I'm still thankful that I know I can still chat with them online on my birthday. I'm not really excited about that day. My friends are even more excited for me than I do. Its just that I don't really know what to do and what to feel. 

I really want to celebrate my birthday and make it a special and memorable one. I want it to be a happy day.  I want to encounter God on that day. Daddy God..

Red dishes

I don't really know how to start well but.. anyway, I'm 2nd year BS in Nutrition and Dietetics and lately I've been trying out how to cook different kinds of dishes.

Recently, I've been cooking spaghetti and macaroni stuffs and little by little I'm mastering it. A while ago we cooked macaroni with spaghetti sauce. First it was too sweet but I added a little salt just to balance the taste. I didn't knew it was like that. I just tried it and it worked. It was a gratifying experience. Kidding. Not really hahaha I'm just happy. I want to improve more but not just on pasta dishes but also in rice meals etc. The dish really tasted good and its almost finished. I don't have any picture of it but maybe next time I will.

One more week to go

One more week to go and my 18th birthday is coming up.

I'm still in shock that this day is really getting nearer and nearer. I didn't expect this to come so fast. I really don't want it to come right away. One reason is that I don't really know what to do in my birthday. I don't know what kind of celebration I will have. I'm missing my family more when I think about my upcoming birthday. Its really something that is worth celebrating with my family, especially. I wanted it to be spent with my whole family but yes, unfortunately, they're abroad and I have no choice but to spend it without them. It may be hurtful but everything will be fine. God is here. I have nothing to worry about. He is with me and it is enough. I know that He will always be with me and with my family there in Saudi Arabia. I'm really just thankful for their lives. I just love my family and I seriously miss them so much. Its been so long since I last saw them personally. I'm just so excited again. Thank you Lord for giving me such a loving and godly parents. Thank you for doing it all for me. Thank you Lord. 

This 18th birthday will not become special without God. Thank you Dad! :)

7 days!

Philippines

It is currently raining in the Philippines. It is not a typhoon but the rain is only caused by a monsoon. Though caused by monsoon alone, it surpassed the Ondoy typhoon that happened here years ago.

Genesis 8:7-12 is currently the top trend in twitter.
Genesis 8:7-12 is about Noah's ark. It is true and never a myth.
But remember in the succeeding verses.. God says in

Genesis 8:21
And the Lord was pleased with the aroma of the sacrifice and said to Himself, "I will NEVER again curse the ground because of the human race, even though everything they think or imagine is bent toward evil from childhood. I will NEVER again destroy all living things."

God is FOREVER FAITHFUL to His promises. His love never fails. We may fall short most of the times but He never will. His grace and love transcends anyone else's understanding. Why should we fear? Why are we worrying? Where is the faith that God looks for in each of us? Do we pray with faith? Do we pray just for ourselves or we pray for the sake of everyone? Faith is believing in something even though we are not able to see. Yet. 

John 20:29
"Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who HAVE NOT seen and yet HAVE BELIEVED."

Yes, the weather is indeed terrifying right now. It has affected a lot of people already. Some already died because of this unpredictable weather. Some are stranded in places and are unable to go back home. Some are worried about their homes. Some doesn't know what to do anymore. Whom can we go to? Whom can we get strength and comfort? NO ONE. No one BUT GOD! God is all mighty.. all powerful. Did you totally forgot about Him? Did you forget how great He is when He used ordinary people to do extraordinary things? Did you forget how He sent His one and only son to the cross just to die for our sins? Did you forgot how He loves you no matter who you are and who you have been? Did you forget all His promises? Did you forget how gracious and loving is our Father? Please.. beloved. Don't be overwhelmed by the situation. Look to God. All we have to do is to go to Him. We should not be discouraged just because we don't see it right now. The sun will shine. By faith and by His pure grace. Let's pray for everyone's safety, comfort and strength for the affected people.

PRAY. Never underestimate the power of prayer. It is the simplest yet the most powerful thing we could do right now. God is good. He hears :)

Stand your grounds

Being a Christian doesn’t mean we are perfect. Instead, it only gives us a deep desire to be the person that God wants us to be. A person that will keep His commands and obey Him no matter what, whatever it takes.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean we are going to live a storm-free lives. Instead, we have nothing to worry about anymore because we know that God has won the victory. God will be with us all throughout the storms, weak or strong. It doesn’t matter if you do not have every ability to overcome those storms but by faith and through His grace, we are able. Availability is better than ability to God.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean everybody will love us because of our changed lives. Changed by God. As a true Christian, God told us beforehand that we, as His children, will face oppositions. In most cases, painful oppositions. We will be tested in various ways but together we should stand firm in our convictions. We live to praise and worship God. We do not live to please people around us. We should place our security in God’s hands. As the Bible clearly states, we should stop trusting ourselves for salvation. Our good works will not save us. But only through His grace and love. Salvation is a gift. We only have to willingly and joyfully receive it ONLY from Jesus Christ.

2 Timothy 2:11-13 

If we died with Him, we will also live with Him.
If we endure, we will also reign with Him.
If we disown Him, He will also disowns us.
If we are faithless, He remains faithful for He cannot disown Himself.

Storms are present in our lives. Storms come to test our faith and to help us grow spiritually. We learn to trust in Him more. We learn to look at Him alone. Sometimes, there are storms that almost drain us in the inside. Storms that cost us a lot. But do remember that storms come and go. It may stay for a long time but it will not last forever. God is preparing you for He has a great plan for your life. God will not let you handle things you can’t. God is reaching out His helping hand. His heart is more loving and gracious that transcends anyone else’s understanding. Indescribable.

Being a Christian is not as easy as it seems to be but.. in the end of age, we all know that everything is just worth it. Time will come that God will return and take us with Him and rejoice in the heaven. Isn’t it wonderful? Isn’t it exciting? Stand firm in faith. Stand your grounds. He will return.. soon.

Isaiah 43:1-4

But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
    O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
    I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.
Others were given in exchange for you.
    I traded their lives for yours
because you are precious to me.
    You are honored, and I love you

I rise as You are risen

Declare Your rule and reign

My life confess Your Lordship

And glorify Your Name

Your Word it stands eternal

Your Kingdom knows no end

Your praise goes on forever

An on and on again

No power can stand against You

No curse assault Your throne

No one can steal Your glory

For it is Yours alone

I stand to sing Your praises

I stand to testify

For I was dead in my sin

But now I rise, I will rise

As Christ was raised to life

Now in Him, now in Him

I live

 Beneath the waters (Hillsong)

Marge Asilo

Honestly, I don't really know how to start this but I will just let if flow informally. Anyway, today is ate Marge's birthday! I'm so grateful to God that I met someone like her. I'm just amazed on how God uses her life. I can see God in her every time I had a chance to see her.

It all started when we were in Nueva Ecija trip. I stayed there for 4 days and 3 nights with other friends from church. I never expected that I would get to know her more during those times since I'm one of the quiet persons there. I don't really speak a lot but I do when I need to or when I feel like doing it haha! Anyway, it was those times that I met her for the first time. The first thing I noticed about her, or maybe something that she did that caught my attention was her laugh. Awiieeee hahahaha! It was very cute and loud that I can't help but look. Then the first night,we opened up and started sharing things about how God moves and works in our lives. I had the chance to be with her through the trip and I am very thankful to Ms. Julienne Cayabyab. Ayie haha! 

I'm really honored and privileged to be a friend of a woman of God, a woman of faith. I really admire her. I pray that God will use her more and use her to reach out for more people out there. I'm really thankful to God that I have met someone like ate Marge. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE!

I love you with the love of the Daddy God and God bless youuuuu 

God is an awesome God!

I'm so happy right now and I have no one to talk about to about my happiness right now since its still morning and I guess everyone's still sleeping.

This month, our church is holding a new series entitled "Cats, Monsters and Broken Hearts". This series will run for a month and it is all about the singers of this generation and the message behind their songs. I'm so excited for this series and today, we're about to finish week 1! Yesterday was a blast. In the 2 services in a Thursday, there were overflow rooms already. I just love to see how God works in our church. I feel so blessed to be a part of this church.

I have this childhood friend whose not really into "church". I mean I grew up with her abroad. We were growing up in the same church. But somehow.. somewhere she got lost. I didn't see her for a while especially when we got here in the Philippines for our college studies. I haven't had contact with her ever since. We barely talk and meet since we are studying in different schools. Just now, she sent me a text message saying that she has loads of problems that she can't handle anymore. Its really shocking for me because she really doesn't text me when she has something bothering her. So I took the chance to reply and comfort her with God's Word. With my surprise, she asked me about the church I'm attending, Victory University Belt. She asked me what time are their services and if she could bring someone with her also who wanted to attend the church as well. I was so shocked that I can't help but smile and thank God. 

Its Friday today and I'm going to see her in our 5pm youth service in Victory U-Belt. I'm so haaaaaaappyy! I hope that she will be blessed and whatever the message later in the service, I pray that it will give her a change of heart. God will change her heart. She will return. God is more excited than I am I'm sure haha! Thank you God! THIS IS ALL FOR YOU! 

Obedience

In our generation, some people think that just knowing things about God is enough for their salvation. They thought that regularly attending a church is enough to be saved. But it is not enough. Accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and personal Savior is not the end point in salvation. It is the starting point :)

It is good that we know a lot about Him but as we learn about Him more, we are ought to obey Him. Obedience pleases the Lord. Obedience to God's Word builds strong spiritual foundation. In some cases, its really hard to obey God especially if it will cost us something big or something important to us. It is sometimes difficult to surrender things to Him but with continuous prayer and reading His Word daily will little by little help us let go of those things. Little by little, we will learn to obey Him. As we know Him more and more, we will see how great, how awesome, how gracious, how loving our Father is. That we just can't help but kneel and cry out to God. That we just can't help but to obey and praise Him. That we can't help but surrender everything to Him knowing that we are in good hands. Reading His Word will let us know Him more with the power of the Holy Spirit. It is by reading the Bible that we will know Him more. And the most important thing is that we should live it out, and let it be evident in our lives. It will not happen in just one moment, it is a gradual process. God will change our hearts little by little. God will help us go through anything. And as we walk with Him and fall in love more with Him, it will not be too hard for us to obey anymore. 

It is when you fall in love with Him deeper and deeper, that you become happier and more secured in this place. Place your security in God and we will not have to worry about anything anymore for He will never abandon or forsake us. He loves you so much. He loves you so much to hurt you and let you go through things you can't handle alone.

Deuteronomy 31:8

"Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you."

Do not worry

Something that really inspires me. Thank you God.
READ: Matthew 6: 24-34

Worrying keeps us distracted from God. It divides our attention on Him. The Enemy’s ploy is to make you so busy dealing with the things in your life that you fail to focus on the One who can make it alright: the True Light, Jesus Christ. During the times you worry, you unconsciously distrust your God’s sufficiency. And then the devil is happy. He wants us to trust our own efforts, our own ideas of a way out, rather than keeping focused and dependent on our Savior.

Yes, you are human. Yes, you worry. It’s in your nature. However, don’t dwell on fear. Don’t be overwhelmed by these. They are a ploy from the devil to rob you from the hope and life that Jesus has purchased for you on the Cross. Whatever it is you’re going through right now, remember that there is a Higher Truth than what you are afraid of. That’s Jesus, and there is no more excuse to worry and stress yourself, after all that He is willing to do for you.

REASONS WHY NOT TO WORRY:

Worry keeps you from enjoying what you have (v25). Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? The problem with us is that we constantly seek, and seek, and fail to already see how much God has blessed us. We fail to see that life is much more than just being in on the fashion, having more than enough, and being popular. Beloved, they are not wrong, however, they shouldn’t be a cause of stress, whereas God willed for you to enjoy your life to its fullest. Right now, you are very blessed. You have all the reason to be happy. Happiness is not about what you have; it is what you enjoy in life. Every good thing, no matter how small, comes from God, and they are for you.

Worry makes you forget your worth(v26). Are you not much more valuable than they? Look around you. Look at the birds, the squirrels, the bats, and others. They don’t starve. They have all they need. God provides for these mere animals. How about in your case? God punished His beloved Son on your behalf, and do you think He will brush off your needs too easily? Will He ignore your pleas? Does the Cross stop in your salvation from eternal damnation, and then Jesus will tell you, “Okay, child. I’m done. I’ll just see you in heaven. Good luck in this world.” It’s not like that. Hey, beloved, when you worry, you forget what has been done for you. You forget who you are now that Jesus died for you. You forget how the Almighty Father sees you. When you are preoccupied with different things, you forget the kind of God that you serve, and how faithful He is to you. Don’t lose your focus on Him. Know that He is faithful, and He is willing to do anything for you, because He loves you.

Worry is useless. It disrupts your productivity(v27). Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Worrying won’t solve your problem. If you are jobless, worrying constantly and getting yourself stressed won’t land you in a position. When you’re too preoccupied with too many things, you’ll be exhausted easily. You’re putting yourself in a rocking chair: you do something by worrying, but you’re not getting anywhere. It’s useless stressing yourself with stuff that were already dealt with in Jesus on the cross.

Worry erases God’s promises in your mind(vv28-30). Will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? When you’re too busy with your problems, you fail to remind yourself about God’s plans for you(Jeremiah 29:11). Beloved, you forget that God Himself will solve that trouble for you. You exhaust yourself for nothing. Will He not much more clothe you, oh you who are dearly and deeply loved by Christ? Don’t doubt your Savior. There’s nothing that is too difficult for Him to solve. You can come to Him again and again and again, and He won’t ever get tired of you! You can ask from Him repeatedly and He won’t ever run out of stock, or ever be unavailable! If He doesn’t get tired of clothing those lilies everyday, how much more will He love to attend to you, beloved?

Worry is the characteristic of pagans and unbelievers(vv31-32). For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. Those who don’t trust and believe in Jesus are set on struggling tooth and nail to meet their needs. They have no one to depend to, and no rock to stand on. How about you? You’re the favored one of God. You’re not like the rest of the world. You have an awesome, loving Father on your side, so why be afraid? You know that He is for you, why worry? Why imitate man’s tradition? Because you are righteous in Jesus Christ, God will always be enough for you. You have Someone to lean on and run to. Worrying reduces your ability to trust in God. The more you try to figure out what you can do, the more you become desperate, because the answer doesn’t lie in yourself. It lies in Jesus. Remember that, beloved.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (vv33-34).

The Greek word for the ‘first’ in verse 33 is proton, which means ‘holding the highest place in our affection.’ And for the word seek is zeteo, which means ‘to hunger, to desire to worship.’

Therefore, God wants us to always hold His kingdom and righteousness(Jesus) in the highest place for our affection, in a hunger, or a desire to worship. It means beholding our Savior, before anything else. It is considering what Jesus has done, and has promised to do, before freaking out. It is trusting the Lord through worship before totally panicking, because stability comes only through Him, beloved. Your security and source of joy and provision is Jesus alone. NO one else. Nothing else. Depend on Him, because He is the Source of your peace. He will still your soul, then with your eyes still focused, and your heart trusting upon Him, you’ll discover in Him, the solution of all your problems.

Live one day at a time. You have to be aware that you are in a position of receiving and dependence in Jesus. Don’t worry about the future, beloved. You might not be able to enjoy today, which God has prepared for you too. In all these setbacks, God has a plan. His mercy and goodness holds you up, and you won’t be overcome. Ever. Worry only distracts you from Him, and it’s not good for you.

Beloved, always be conscious of who you are, and what your faith calls for. Be confident, because you believe in a God who can do anything. Don’t be afraid to put Him first, because He won’t fail you.

Woman of God

Proverbs 31:30

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last;

    but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised.

Probably, most of the people heard about this verse already. This might be one of the verses that are usually forgotten by a lot of people. The society nowadays are mostly focused on outward appearance, mainly women. Women now undergo lots of surgical operations just to look good and look pleasing to the people around them. They think that undergoing those things will only increase their self-confidence and win  the acceptance of the crowd. 

I am not saying that making yourself look pretty is bad. Its just that we should not neglect our INSIDE. The inside lasts forever and never fades. Like what the verse above says, beauty fleets.. it lasts. And you know who could make you so beautiful that will last forever? Its Jesus Christ. As you surrender your life to Him, You will grow more beautiful in His love. His love makes you beautiful. And you know what's nice about that? His love doesn't only make you beautiful in the outside but most importantly in the inside. He changes you! He changes your ways, those ugly old ways. He changes them to something more beautiful that manifests on the outside. A woman of God, a proverbs 31 woman is not obliged or forced to go with the flow of this sinful world. Instead, she goes against the flow with courage and strength! You know why? Because she has God! He who is greater than anyone or anything in this world. He who comforts those who are persecuted, weary and troubled. He secures the heart of this woman. He loves this woman no matter what. And this woman of God never stops pleasing God. She longs for His presence every now and then, seeking Him always. Seeking His will in every decision she makes and trusting His timing in every season of her life. This woman doesn't grow old as time goes by. She's not affected by the storms that comes her life. She doesn't go through those storms alone, God is with her and God assures that her precious princess is safe and unharmed. He protects her princess and uses godly people to always remind and protect her. He smiles and is pleased with this woman. He blesses her so much and loves her so dear. She longs to be with her Father. She longs to see His face and hear His still small voice. She longs to be with the God Almighty forever.

And when the time comes, she will grow so beautiful, so beautiful than the rising sun and the sound of the birds. She will grow more beautiful than the rainbow. She will grow beautiful in His love.

Why do you have to spend so much money and invest so much time  on things that are just temporary? Why not invest time on things that is eternal? Isn't it the best thing and wisest thing to do? Aren't you tired of pleasing the people around you? Aren't you tired of a constantly changing trends in this place? Aren't you done with seeking attention from mortals? Why do you have to please this temporary world and not please our eternal God? The King of kings and Lord of Lords? This thing on earth are will not last. The happiness that this earth gives is just temporary. A lot of people underestimate this truth and continue on their ways. But its not too late. God is still waiting for You. He is patiently waiting for you.

Beauty lasts.. focus on what is eternal ladies. Eternal. This might be a short word but this word carries a heavy meaning. This word might look so simple but this "eternal" word is something very big. 

A proverbs 31 and a job 29 is just a perfect godly match. And personally, I pray to be that kind of woman to have that kind of man in His time :) I just love talking and sharing about God. I love my job 29 already whoever he is. I just pray for him to grow more in faith and love. I am and will wait. And while I wait, I will want to be this kind of woman most especially for God. I want Him to change me and continually renew my heart everyday. Thank you God.

Let's just let Him move in and through our lives. Open hearts. See Him change you in to something so beautiful. The kind of beauty that will last forever and ever :) Having God's spiritual seed in you grow into a beautiful flower.

"A woman who ultimately pursues 

God's purpose for her life is beautiful."


A man who is not after God's heart should not be after hers.
Ladies, let's set our standards higher. Don't settle for anything less than God's best! 

Thank you God

I feel really happy up to now. I've been feeling this after our Leader's Convergence in our church. I just feel really blessed to have godly people around me. I'm so happy that I just can't contain it. That happiness that I just want to hug every person I see but of course I should not. Haha! I just felt really blessed. 

I want to be closer to Him. I want to get closer and closer that I can hear His voice directly. I just love the way He makes me happy recently. Like for every problem I face now, its just like a dust. I don't mind it and just let it go there. It will not affect me. I have God. WE HAVE A LIVING GOD! Why makes things so complicated when its just so simple? :) 

I love you God that's all I can say right now. Thank you so much for everything You have given to me, my family and my friends. I just love You so much that I want to say it over and over and over again. I'm so deeply in love with You and I can be secure because I know Your love for me will never fail and it will endure forever. I want to love Your people like how You love them. Teach me how to forgive like You do. I want to serve You and Your people God. I just want to make You happy and offer this very life of mine. You are more precious to me than my own life Lord. You are the only One who gave me Your son to die for my sins. And I am just so grateful and thankful for that. Thinking about You makes me want to praise and worship all the time. I want to dance praises and sing worships to You. I want my friends as well as other people to know how much You've changed my life.. how much You've love me. I want them to experience that same kind of love You have always shown me. I want them to know You too and  I'm holding to Your promise. Thank You Lord so much. 

My heart is rejoicing because I have a Father like You. I love You Dad. I love You so much :)

Princess of the Eternal King

When I was a child, I really wanted to be a princess. I wanted to be treated highly because I belong to a king. I really envied those Disney movies I watched back when I was little. I badly want to be like them. And knowing that each princess has her own prince.

I knew God ever since I was little but I have to admit that I didn't really took it seriously. I grew up in a Christian family. Before it was like.. okay yes I am Christian but I wasn't really devoted and I haven't surrendered everything to Him before. It was a big WAS. Its different now hihi. He changed my life. Now I'm living this life for His glory. I'm giving up everything just for God.

But you know, that dream of mine came true. Its too good to be true right? I belong to a royal family. I belong to a King. I am His princess. And you know what's so tear-jerking? My King, our King, will reign NOW AND FOREVER! His Kingdom will last forever. God's Kingdom will forever reign above all. Knowing I am His princess breaks me down to tears. Knowing that whatever I do, He will always be my side. He will always be there for me.. to love me like no one else can. His love, grace, mercy and more are just so amazing. He protects me from men  that He knows will hurt me in the end. He prepared me a godly prince. He picked the best for me. He knows what's best for me. Isn't He sweet? Isn't He wonderful? This blog post can't contain how happy I am to be His. Accepting Jesus in my life and letting Him take control of everything is the best decision I have ever made. This God I serve is an everlasting God. 

What would you choose? Something that is just temporary which is in the world or something that will last forever that is beyond everything? To be a slave of this sinful world or to be a prince/princess of the Almighty King? TEMPORARY OR FOREVER?

Come. Accept Jesus and let Him change your life. I had experienced the best in my life every since I have accepted Him. My dream of becoming a princess came true. See? He is the King! The Eternal King! King of Kings! The Lord of Lords! Honestly, when my brothers and sisters call me princess, I can't help but smile because its really a dream come true. And knowing that I'm not just any other princess that will lose her crown after she died. No, I'm forever a princess of a forever King. God alone, brings eternal happiness and not the temporary happiness that this world brings.

Choose Him! Choose God!

Lifebox UST

Lately, I've been having a lot of struggles.. not just plain struggles but the difficult ones. I've went to the hospital for check-up and I had got some sad results. The day I went to the hospital was also the day of our youth service in Victory University Belt church. I went to the church that afternoon.. I was so bothered at the results and I can't really focus. I just want to pour all out everything to God that time. I want to cry out so hard to Him.. but I can't. I want to do it in private. So I didn't choose to be so down that time. I don't want them to worry so much so I tried to look happy. I wasn't really happy until I got the time to share it with some people from our church. I told them what happened and what were the results. I was so touched when each person I shared it with, prayed for me. I was so overwhelmed by their willingness to pray for me. Well.. honestly I'm not that outgoing and loud person. I didn't knew they cared for me until last night. I really wanted to cry when they were praying for me. I want to cry hard because I was really touched seeing their godly love and care.. But I didn't let my tears drop. I don't want to cry in front of many people especially to those people who are really close to me. I can't say I'm good in hiding what I really feel, but sometimes I just have to for the sake of other people. 

I really don't know how to enjoy my college life without them. I can't imagine myself not meeting them during my college years. I'm really thankful that God gave me Lifebox UST. They're my second family here in Philippines. I'll continue to pray for all of them, for their spiritual growth and strength.

I asked God for a friend.. 

but He gave me a family, 

Lifebox UST

Post Leaders' Camp 2012 post

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We went back to Manila last June 3, Sunday. We spent 3 days and 2 nights in Caliraya Resort, Laguna. There were all in all 23 campuses in the camp alone and there were more than 350 plus student leaders who went to the camp. There were 3 sessions during the camp. 1 session per day and different preachers per session. 

I personally enjoyed the camp especially the sessions because I learned so much I didn't knew before. It was very helpful for making disciples and how to be an effective godly leader. I met also fellow leaders from other campuses and really loved it especially with new rising leaders like me. I really thank God that He gave me the opportunity to attend this kind of camp. I feel refreshed and it strengthen my spiritual aspect. Thank you Daddy God!

Leader's Camp 2012 Pre-post

One more day to go and its we're off to Laguna! I'm so excited for this camp and I didn't expect that I was also coming in this camp. 

Well, I first saw this poster in our church earlier this year and I only became active this year in Victory University Belt. So the first time I saw the poster, I didn't mind since I didn't expect to be a leader too soon. I just got intimidated when as the camp date gets nearer and nearer, a lot of people asked me if I'm going or not. Many people asked me to join.. grab the opportunity. It was that time.. that I thought about going to this camp. But at first, I didn't have money. I don't have allowance since its summer vacation? Haha! So I don't have any money to pay for this camp. The time I thought about going to the camp, there were only few slots left. I have to pay even just half the amount of the total so that I can have a sure slot. Since I don't have money, I even borrowed from a friend. A week after, that money I paid for slot reservation was returned since someone paid higher than I did. That time I lost hope and said that maybe I was not meant to go to the camp. After few weeks, I have this godly friend who generously gave me his slot because he has something important to do during the time of the camp. I was so blessed on what he did because I didn't really expected it since I lost hope and let go of the thought that I'm coming to the camp this June. I believe that he himself too wanted to go the camp. He is the guy who loves fun as I can see so I really believe that giving me his slot was really a sacrifice. I just don't know how to thank him because word aren't enough. I feel really happy and soooooooooo blessed :) I really want to do the same thing someday. Giving something that really means to me. I'm so thankful to God for the life of that person. 

I already packed up but I still miss some things so I'm not yet finished. Last day of packing up tomorrow! I'm so excited! One more day! Thank You Daddy God so much! I'm really looking forward for the next days. God bless! 

Thomasian College Sophomore Schedule

This is my schedule next semester. I'm happy and contented with my schedule compare from my last year's schedule -_- Last year was so hectic and this semester.. its somehow flexible. I'm really thankful because God answered my prayer! I prayed for a flexible and favorable class schedule this semester and He gave me one! :"> Our Dad is so sweet, right? I'm really grateful to have Him here in my heart. ♥

Table Tennis for my PE! I'm so excited and looking forward for more fun experiences inside the campus. Fish for people.. all for the glory of the Lord God Almighty! All for You Father! :) 








Schedule of a Thomasian BS major in Nutrition and Dietetics sophomore 

Airplanes

The day came. My mom and brother went off 6 hours ago to Jeddah again. I'm alone here now. Alone is different from lonely so I'm still good :) I'm having a roommate this time and the best thing about my roommate is that she's a Christian too. I really love having devoted Christian people around me. 

Well yesterday.. we had our breakfast at Mcdonalds. It was our last meal together before they go. I didn't feel the sadness during the morning. After eating at Mcdonalds, we went to SM Manila to buy some stuffs to bring. We rode taxi on our way home. When we got home, they started to fix things already since they have to go to the aiport at 1pm. Their flight was scheduled at 6pm. To avoid heavy traffic and crowded people at the entrance of the airport, they decided to go there earlier.. really early. The fixing time had passed so fast and they had to get a taxi soon. I didn't went with them to the airport because I'm sure that it will be too.. much drama and I don't want that. Seeing them go breaks my heart so I decided to just go with them up to the taxi only. When we took a taxi and put everything they brought with them inside the car, I quickly went back home.. and yeah  unconsciously.. I was crying already. I really hated airplanes before and partly until now.. because it takes my loved ones away :'( But I know its kind of childish to think of that but yeah.. I'm serious. 

I don't want to watch them go away. I don't want them to see me cry and in my part, to see them cry. Seeing them crying makes me even more uncomfortable. Its really sad to be away from the ones you love and to the people you have been with for a very long time.. even from the very start :) It was always been hard for me to part ways from them. I never had this feeling "I'm used it, I'm fine". I wanted to have that feeling but every time I try, its just keep getting worse. I'm sad that they went back there but I'm partly happy because I know they'll meet my dad again soon since he was alone there for 45 days.. my dad counted that haha! he said.. :D

Like what my sibling in Christ said, its okay to be sad but we don't have to dwell on it for too long. It will not do us anything good. I realized that just because I feel sad doesn't mean I have to be sad the whole day. I have Jesus in me, He who is greater than anyone or anything in this world. Why would I dwell on this sadness? He alone makes me happy. Knowing that I have Jesus in my life is more than enough to make me feel glad and grateful. God said, He'll send a comforter.. he is the Holy Spirit. And I want him to live in me always. I'm really thankful that I have godly family and friends around me, most especially daddy God :) 

I know I'll be fine here and they'll be fine there for I know God will always be with us, with you ;) 

Family

This is related to my last blog post. They have 5 more days here or.. nearly 4 'cause its almost 12 in the midnight here in Philippines now.

I'm gonna miss them so much. I'll be living alone here again. This place would be so quiet again and I'll be doing everything all by my own again. Its somehow sad to live alone but I know I'm not a child anymore. And God is with me every time. My dad is alone in Saudi too now since my mom and brother are here in the Philippines. I'm happy because he'll be with them again. 

Ever since I was a kid, I really have this inside me that its okay for me to feel sad as long as the people I love are happy. I don't want to see them sad, it breaks my heart seeing them that way. I'd rather be the one who gets sick than seeing them suffering from sickness. I'd rather get hurt than seeing them getting hurt. I'd rather be the one who eats nothing than seeing them eat nothing. I would rather be alone here in the Philippines rather than force them to come live with me here and leave my dad there for working purposes. I don't want that. I don't know but I guess its just a part of me :) And I really want to see smiles from their faces and of course from the faces of the people I love :) I want them to be together always. I want to be with them too of course. But if there's someone who needs to sacrifice, I mean.. I'm a girl whose very very close with my family, every family member so before I started entering college, I seriously had a hard time. I had these numerous sleepless nights, crying before going to sleep and not eating because of depression. It was really hard at first since I've been with them for years and suddenly need to leave for college. Even though it was hard for me, I would still   rather live by myself than my father in Saudi. In Saudi, we don't have any relatives there.. just friends, church friends :) Here in the Philippines we have a lot so I can go and meet them anytime. In the case of my dad, he can't so I want him to be with my mom and brother though it takes me to be alone here. 

I love them so much and I'm going to miss my mom and my brother. I miss my dad so much. I long to live with them again. I want to build or buy a house for them after I graduate and start working. It seems silly since I'm still studying but I want to have our own house here in the Philippines. I'm really looking forward for that and praying for it! If I can't I know God has a better plan for us. 

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give  you the desires of your heart 

Thank you daddy God! I know You're in control of everthing! :">

1 week

I'm alone here in the house and I feel tired (?) Haha! I want to take a long rest. I'm gonna have power sleep tonight. I've been too busy recently about random things. Since my family have 1 more week left here in the Philippines, I want to spend more time with them. I still want to do a lot of things with them before they go :) So I might be busy for a week. I will really really miss them. After they're gone, I'm alone here again so I want to spend time while they're here with me. 

Thank you Lord for giving them the chance to spend summer with me! I'm happy and I can't ask for more.  I know You will give me all the comfort and strength I will need when they're gone. Thank you for always being there Daddy God! :)

Mother's Day

I know.. I'm 4 days late but I believe in "Its better late than never". Lol. Well, I want to greet my loving mom a Happy Mother's Day, its never too late. Everyday should be mother's day right?

Maybe right now, she thought that I wasn't making anything for her since mother's day was 4 days ago. Hihi. Papatalo ba ako? No! Haha! Well, she brought me into this world on August 18, 199* nyaha! My mom is one of the women I look up to. People's first impression of her is masunget because of her loud voice and big eyes (I wish I had that eyes lol). But trust me, she's not. She's very kind and generous. 

My mom is a preschool teacher outside the country. She works abroad to support our family. My dad lives abroad with her as well. Therefore, I'm the only one studying here in the Philippines.. okay. Haha! I really admired her passion in teaching. She teaches nursery students; nursery students are the hardest children to teach since they don't know ANYTHING. They only know mama, papa and few words and yet my mom is so patient enough to teach those kids. She's been doing that ever since I was elementary (?) oh, most probably when I was still in preschool, she's already teaching nursery kids. I really admire her for that because teaching nursery children is something serious, their skills will depend on how effective and good the teacher is. Its like she's the one building the foundation of the kids all through out their school life. School life nyaha! Oh well.. yes its really amazing and I really admire her for that. 

My mom.. she's the one who brought my dad to church :) When they got married, my mom was the only Christian. My mom patiently brought my dad to church every week and now my dad is pastor. God used my mom to reach out to my dad and I'm very thankful for that. She also thought us how to pray from our hearts. I really can't forget those times. 

Most of all, she's a loving and godly mom :) She cooks for us everyday maybe the last time I experienced that when I was in high school. I'm already in college.. living alone. I miss those times where she wake me up by telling the wrong time. Let's say my class is 7:30am, she's tells me that is 7:30 already when its just 6:00 in the morning, so of course the usual reaction is.. I panic and get up immediately. I miss my high school days where my mom's classroom is just downstairs and I eat with her students. You know.. getting food from their lunch boxes. Well that's how I save money back in high school buwahaha! I miss the times where she takes care of me when I'm sick. She waits for me to sleep and rubs my head. I love that feeling when she touches my hair and rubs my head and make me feel loved.  I remember in my first year of college, my stomach really ached so bad that the feeling was like something sharp is slitting my stomach.. (over!) haha! It was that feeling that I'm not really comfortable and like a child.. I was calling for my mom, but whatever I do, I know she's far and she can't go here as quickly as possible and just for that reason. I cried because I remember the times when some part of my body aches, she's just there to come and ask me what's wrong. But now that I'm in college, I can't do that just like that anymore. She's working abroad and I'm here in the Philippines studying for college. I really cried that night because I really missed my mom. 

We've gone through a lot.. a lot of arguments and fights but despite of those things, I love my mom. She might not be the perfect mom, but she's the only mom I want to have :) She's the best mom for me and I'm thankful to God that He gave me her to take care of me and take responsibility of me. I love her so much and I'm going to miss her since she have 9 days left here in the Philippines. I'm gonna miss her so much but I pray that they will be safe there. Though apart, they're in my heart and always be in my heart. 

Mommy, thank you so much for everything. I know this is too long but this alone can't express how much I'm thankful to God that He gave me you. I know sometimes we argue and fight but I want you to know that I still love you and you're the best mom and the only mom I wanted to have. Thank you for always being there for me and loving me for who I am. I'm thankful to have a godly mom like you. Stay that way. Fat or thin, I still love you just the way you are. I'm going to miss you and always keep in mind that I love you so much. 

I love you Mom

Unending Love

I'm back. Its been a long time  since I last blogged. I was in the province days ago :D I have something to share about how God comforted me of some certain struggle and how amazing I felt after crying out to him :)

The other night, I was receiving texts and messages about people who doesn't believe in me. I mean they don't believe on what I can do and what God can do through me.  They continue to question about my abilities and the gifts God has given me. They try to pull me down and say hurtful words. I don't know if its the right term but I felt condemned. But of course as a child of God, there is no more condemnation.. Romans 8:1 Therefore, there is now no more condemnation for those who is in Christ Jesus. 

That night, I felt so much pain and I just wanted to cry, really cry. Then.. He spoke to my heart, talk to Me. I felt so ashamed at first because I haven't had really a "time" with Him these days. I was afraid that He'll not listen to me and leave me just like that. BUT NO! I didn't want to listen to the LIES of the devil.  We are His and we can go to Him and talk to Him anytime, all the time. I cried out to him. I heard Hillsong's Unending Love song. I was crying and praying that He will give me strength. The best part is the part that He actually comforted me with His Word. Not that I'm testing Him but I asked Him what does He say about the problem I have. I opened and closed the Bible 3 times. I asked Him to show me His Word and His say about the struggle I have the 3RD TIME I open the Bible. The 3rd time I opened it.. I cried so hard! He was actually speaking to me! He brought me to Philippians 4! 

Philippians 4:1, 4:4-9

New International Version (NIV)

4 Therefore, my brothers and sisters, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, stand firm in the Lord in this way, dear friends!

⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹ Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

I cried so hard after reading this passage. My tears falling while reading this book in the Bible. I repeatedly thanked Him for His Word and after that, I felt GREAT COMFORT. 


Last thing, He spoke to my heart.

It doesn't matter if they don't believe in you, as long as I BELIEVE IN YOU, you don't have to WORRY about ANYTHING!

Nothing can draw us, His children, away from His heart.

All the glory to God alone. Thank you Father. My life is not enough to thank you for all You have done for me. I'm so grateful and happy to be in Your hands. I will always and forever serve You with all I am. Jesus, nothing compares to this grace that has rescued Me. Savior, NOW AND FOREVER YOUR FACE IS ALL I SEEK :(

I miss my brother

Last night, it was around 2am in the morning. I can't sleep. I've heard some girl screams along the hallway outside our unit. I heard it more than 3 times so I was terrified that time. I texted people just to make me feel that "I'm not the only one awake". Haha! Then when I was really scared, I pulled my brother's blanket, he's also awake :) He wasn't sleeping and was even planning to open my laptop just to play, you know what guys usually play -_- We were sleeping in a double deck bed. I was sleeping at the bottom part and him at the top part. So when I pulled his blanket from the top then he went down beside me. He told me maybe someone's just watching horror movie at this hour :)) I was kind of relieved that time and I wasn't scared anymore. I really miss the comfort I feel from my brother every time I get scared. I also forgot those screams when my brother was making jokes and pulling off some funny faces that time. Alam mo yung pigil na pigil yung tawa niyong magkapatid kasi may natutulog na? Ganun haha! Sobrang nakakamiss lang talaga. I miss those moments when I can't sleep, I have this one person I can stay awake with. He waited for me to sleep before he slept. 2 weeks more and they're going back to Saudi where he studies and where my parents work. I'm gonna miss my brother so bad and yeah.. I'll be alone here again :(

Tattoo

tagalog post

Ayun, tattoo :| Haha! Napapansin ko madalas madami nang nagpapatattoo sa katawan nila kahit babae.. Okay lang naman siya pero minsan kasi yung iba naoover na. Yung tipong kulang pa buong katawan nila para lagyan ng tattoo, pati dila nilalagyan na. Hindi naman masama pero yun nga di ko lang talaga trip.. siguro para sa akin lang :)) Tulad nung mga nasa taas, maganda siya pero sa katawan? Parang lols. 

Ayun lamang, meron lang akong pinapatamaan.. si

Andrei Cadaoas

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 

blog post inspired by Kuya Andrei 

Bucketlist #5

# Biking at Sunset

I want to try this someday here in Philippines but I've got only one problem... I don't have a bike :( but I'm still hoping to have one. Maybe not now but someday :) I think it would be really nice and relaxing. I really want to do this someday. I miss biking. The last time I've rode a bike was 3 years ago so.. I'm not really sure if I still know how to ride a 2-wheel bike haha! 


SOMEDAY ヾ(´^ω^)ノ♪


PS: Pahiram naman ng bike oh.. hahaha joke lang :D

会いたかったからだよ

I'm always your girl, Daddy

These days I've been waiting for some people to go online to talk about something important. Last night when my brother was skype-ing with my dad, my dad asked me why I seldom go online in Y!M where we usually chat :) That made me think.. I was waiting for people who I guess weren't even waiting for me but I have this one special person who have been waiting for me always. I felt some pain inside. 

I realized from that moment that I should value more those people who values me. I should give more time for people who are willing to give their time for me. I should give my attention more to people who gives their attention to me. It is a little realization that can change a large aspect in my life. It is true that indeed we should not forget those people who are always thinking about us, especially our family :) 

Daddy, sorry for not being able to go online for days and forgetting to chat with you whenever I go online. But believe me, you were always in my mind and of course will always be in my heart. I miss you so much and I'm longing to see you again and hug you tight! I miss hugging a tall guy already :D I really really miss you and 3 years to go and I'm graduating. I promise to help you after of all this. Don't worry God is always with us right? Let's continue to serve Him and thank you. Thank you for letting me know who Jesus is. I'm really thankful to have you in my life. I love you so much and I miss you! 

お前は本当にバカだ

そうだよね。君がバカで何も知らないの。なんだか悲しいな・・・会いたいよ。ても、君はいつも忙しいだね。もう！もう大丈夫だ～だけど君は好きぃ。めっちゃ好きやで。君が好きだから、どうしても気をつけてもらいたいの。君助けたいだけなのに。好きだからじょうがない。君がただここにいればそれだけでいい。君だけが居ればそれでいい　なんて大げさなことは言えないけれど、君が居てくれるだけで嬉しい　っていうのは、本当だから言えるよ？言わなきゃわかんないっていうけど、言わなくてもわかってほしいときだってあるんだよ・・・　こんな時もあるよね。

ねっ、すべてにありがとう。あの・・私を待っているの？じゃ、ここで待っていましょう。神様もいつも待っています。楽しみに待っています。

大好き♥

Something Beautiful

I was scrolling and looking around Tumblr when I came across this picture that was meant to be reblogged when you can relate with it. I just have a little favor for some guys about this.. 

Yes it is indeed sweet but my favor is.. don't do this when you are not totally ready for commitment and most especially don't do this before marriage. Well of course, except for the listening, supporting, standing up for her, the i love you part, be kind, never let her down and remembering small details. I was saying about the physical things. I believe it is really important for people to value purity. It is not only pleasing to God but it is for our own good as well :) 

Trusting in God's perfect time might be difficult because of the overwhelming influences and sex-saturated culture of this present generation. But remember we are called to be DIFFERENT! Yes it might sound weird but we are called to be different and to do what is pleasing to the eyes of God. Yes, I think the content of this picture is sweet but in my opinion, it is sweeter when a guy will patiently and faithfully wait for the right time to do all of these things, most appropriately inside of marriage since it is what God really desires for all of us. 

The best relationship are between two people who care more about each other's good than their own momentary pleasure. I need to wait on romance until I can match our pursuit of intimacy with a pursuit of commitment. Waiting until I'm ready for commitment before pursuing romance is just one example of letting Christ's love control my relationships with the opposite sex The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment.

- Joshua Harris (I Kissed Dating Goodbye)

True love is not selfish, it is selfless. True love is not impatient, it is patient. The Bible says what true love is ;)

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

New International Version (NIV)

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Believe me, it is the sweetest thing to wait for a girl until God's perfect time comes. It doesn't need to be rushed, it waits. 
True love waits :)