Confused

There's a feeling inside me that I just want to go back to Japan right now. I feel so stressed here but not that I don't want here anymore. Maybe I just want to relax in Japan since its cold there right now. I want to share the Word to my Japanese friends as well... most Japanese I know are atheist. Its really sad. I'm going back to Japan this year's October. 

There's something about here that I just want to run from. I just can't tell what but its something that I don't want them to feel that's why I want to get away from them so it will not be too hard for them.. I don't want them to struggle too much. I want to know my very purpose in His kingdom and I know soon, He will reveal it to me. I want Japan to be known as a Christian nation, not as an atheist nation. And if ever the time comes that I have to go back to Japan, I know what I'll do with the guide of the Holy Spirit. I pray that God will use me to share His Word with my Japanese friends and by faith will spread. But then, I'm still deciding and thinking very..very.. hard if I'm going back to Japan to continue studying my course there this coming September, starting of classes in Japan. I'm still confused though.. still praying for it. Maybe I will know when I get there on October.. maybe I can decide when I get there. I'll be staying there for a month or less, maybe its an enough time to think things over again, carefully.

I just want to get away... I just want to be far..
I don't want ___ to ___ too much.. ___ be strong ne :)