I have this struggle in the past few days. It was the time I really lost my communication with God because of that. Yes, during those days I felt so lonely and I don't have this happiness I usually have. Today, I asked God to get me out of that and I really don't want that.. something. I tried so hard to get off my own, but.. I really can't without God's loving hands.. I felt so down, so sad.
During those.. dark days.. I saw something while I was lying on my bed. I saw let's say.. demon while lying down in my bed. I was really shocked.. yeah.. I got scared at first. It really woke me up. I was thinking.. why am I doing this, deep inside I know its hurting God. Then on, I'm still struggling but then I tried very hard to listen to christian songs. Yes.. it was hard because of what I'm feeling. I told God I don't want to be in this situation anymore and I want to overcome this. It was really a struggle, days before my VW. I thought it was the work of the devil to stop me from going to that important christian event. I woke up and starting praying hard about my struggle.
Today, I had overcome it. I don't want to go back to those days again. It was really scary. I remembered how life is without God. I guess this struggle also had a lesson that will be useful in my life. Thank you Lord for Your mercy and grace! :)
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