All for Him

Recently.. I've been seeing most of the people I know are getting lost little by little. I'm getting worried that they might come to the point of.. let's say backsliding. Seeing them there, I felt He spoke to my heart. He told me.. "Don't just sit around and watch them get lost, do something. Fish for them! I am with You!" I knew from that moment that I really have to do something and I should not tolerate what they're doing anymore. I'm a little nervous in doing the first step but I know and believe God will be in control for my next steps. Our job is to share the Word and it is His job to change their hearts.

I have these verses stored in my heart whenever I encounter struggles to keep me strong :)

Daniel 10:19 

"Do not be afraid, you who are highly esteemed," he said. "Peace! Be strong now; be strong." When he spoke to me, I was strengthened and said, "Speak, my lord, since you have given me strength." 

Joshua 1:9 

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. 

Psalm 27:14 

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. 

I know this message of the Lord is not only for me, but for all of us who serve and worship Him in spirit and in truth. For the coming of God's Kingdom is near, we should not just sit down and relax. We are commanded to fish for people all for the glory of the Lord Almighty!

1 Peter 4:6-8

New International Version (NIV)

⁶ For this is the reason the gospel was preached even to those who are now dead, so that they might be judged according to human standards in regard to the body, but live according to God in regard to the spirit. ⁷ The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. ⁸ Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Tired of crying

I really am.. but sometimes I just can't help it

Lately, I've been having a lot of struggles.. painful struggles. I don't know why but most of the time when I feel hurt or pain, I cry. Well.. not in front of people.. usually I cry myself to sleep. Today, I cried again because of a certain struggle and I just felt now.. that I'm tired of it. I don't want to cry anymore.. well that's impossible right? haha! I know God is teaching me a lesson through these struggles, mostly in a painful way. But I know everything will be all right. He's my comforter. And I guess, I will be looking forward to more struggles, maybe painful but I know I can go through all of that. I'm thankful that I have godly friends around me. This year was really different for me and I want it to last forever. I'm thankful God brought me to Victory U-Belt and He gave me godly friends.. I couldn't ask for more. I feel so blessed having them around me. 

Thank you Daddy God! :)

Devotional Bible

I've been praying for a Bible.. well because my Bible now.. only contains New Testament. I have this book that I need to answer, Purple Book. And there are some verses from the Old Testament but then I only have the New Testament. So.. lately I've been wanting to buy the whole Bible. I wanted to buy but.. I don't have allowance.. bad thing about summer lol. Since my mom just got snatched the other day, I'm kinda shy to ask money from her to buy a Bible 'cause she's still recovering from the incident. 

I'm really frustrated but I know God will provide money for that whole Bible :">

The power of prayer

I read some article and I just want to share this :)

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. (Philippians 4:6-7)
Reasons to Pray:
1. It encourages others.
2. It reminds you of spiritual values.
3. It gives hope.
4. It helps you feel better.
5. It allows you to let go of situations.
6. It provides comfort.
7. It relaxes you and reduces anxiety.
8. It builds faith.
9. It deepens character.
10. It broadens your perspective.
11. It brings you closer to God.
12. IT WORKS!

Things to Pray For:
1. For a growing relationship with God.
2. For positive relationships with your family members.
3. For energy and enthusiasm for your work or career.
4. For wisdom to make right and wise decisions.
5. For your service to your community and/or church.
6. For the special needs of your family and friends.
7. For the spiritual lives of your church leaders and congregation.
8. For wisdom for our government leaders.
9. For the moral integrity of today’s young people.
10. For the safety of those serving in our armed forces.
11. For a lasting peace among peoples and nations.
12. For the opportunity to be a blessing to someone today.

Never underestimate the power of prayer ;)

Sisters in Christ

They're both lovely right? The girl with short hair's Abby and the other is Chrisma. 

How we met part muna lol :D

Well, I knew Abby a very long time ago. I knew her since I was in high school.. its funny how I knew her. Wait taglish ako dito ha? lol! Nakilala ko siya kasi yung crush ko nung high school, si Abby yung crush. Eto naman ako stalker kaya ko nakilala si Abby PERO di na ako stalker ngayon ah hmp (defensive) haha!! Naging close lang kami last year, may pageant so.. backstage people kami nun, assisting participants and advising them since sumali kami last year or the other year yata pero magkaibang batch kami. So dun sobrang naging close kami nung nasa backstage, I never thought na magiging kaclose ko siya. Sobrang sweet ni Abby and super thoughtful. Then one time, nagtweet ako na galing akong Victory.. then nagtanong siya sa akin kung ano yun then that was my chance to invite her. I invited her nung mga January, Zoom series ng Victory U-Belt. Nung nagkita na kami, dun ko nameet si Chrisma, her roomate :) Nung una palang talagang ang gaan na ng loob ko sa kanilang dalawa. 4 months ko palang silang nakakasama pero parang ang tagal tagal ko na sila kilala. 

I really thank God na nakilala ko sila. They're both from La Consolacion (tama spelling?) lol! Inadopt sila ng CEU Lifebox and we're praying na magkaroon na rin ng sariling lifebox ang La Co. Nothing is impossible with God naman diba ;) Thankful tlga ako kay God kasi He gave me two godly sisters na laging andyan para sa akin, for better and for worst haha! Ang paborito kong bonding moment namin, yung grouphug naming tatlo. Nakakacomfort lang kasi talaga ng feeling. As in kahit sobrang lungkot ko, yung tipong naiiyak na ako, lagi silang dalawa nandyan para sa akin. Yung mga comforting words and hug nila. I'm so happy na naggrogrow na sila kay Lord at syempre ako din :)) Nakapagvictory weekend na kami ni Chrisma and hopefully soon, si Abby din magvivictory weekend, life changing talaga :) I really want to grow with them to the Lord pero syempre dapat Christ dependent lang kaming lahat. I pray na ibless pa sila ni God and they will bring more La Co students in Victory U-Belt. Pinagluto ko sila ng spaghetti today pero wala sila hahaha! I know we're all busy talaga pero ayun, I'll bring some tomorrow for them nalang. Ang conyo ba? Sorry naman, minsan lang haha! 

Chrisma.. Abby, mahal na mahal ko kayong dalawa. Walang iwanan ah? Kahit magkaiba lifebox natin haha, sa isang place lang naman tayo eh :"> lam niyo yan haha basta walang mawawala. Kapit lang kay Lord lagi. Keep holding on :D I love you both so much. Miss ko na kayo super! :)

Mangga

Weee! May padala si tita galing Guimaras. Bandang.. Ilo-ilo yata yun, somewhere sa Visayas hoho. Sobrang saraaaaaaaap! nomnomnom. Nakadalawa na ako. Parang nwala panlasa ko sa pagkain pagktapos ko kumain nun O.o eh.. ang tamis na ang asim eh haha! Mix :p 

Pero namiss ko talaga to, kasi sa Saudi.. mga mangga di masyadong masasarap tsaka sobrang mahal. Iba talaga mangga ng Philippines :"> haha sarap sorop :D

パパ、お誕生日おめでとうございます！

It was my daddy's birthday yesterday, April 17. It was may second year since I was born that I'm not celebrating his birthday with him. I really love this guy. He is a godly man, more appropriately a Job 29 man :)  He is now pastor of our church abroad. Its really difficult since he is administering a church in a foreign country, a muslim country. Its dangerous and too risky but he chose to serve God and save more souls for Him. I know God will protect the churches abroad. He is even distributing Bibles to people with no Bibles abroad.. really risky but I know God is with him and His reward is above not here on earth. 

When I was in my early teenage years.. I can say I was a bit rebellious, I was overwhelmed by that new stage in my life; hearing many things about how good it is to be a teenager. So I did a lot of things to hurt them, I was so lost. Most of the time, I even forgot to pray.. give time to my family. But you know.. despite of those things, this man.. my dad, is patiently talking to me and saying things about God, sharing the Word although sometimes I don't listen. He read stories in the Bible before my brother and I sleep. We pray together. Nye.. naiiyak ako -_- those were the times I really regret, where I got too rebellious because of peer pressure and influences of "friends". This guy is so patient with me and to the whole family. Even though my mom is already angry, he tries his best not to get angry as well. And when they fight, he is humble enough to go to my mom and apologize even though he gets rejected anyway. Even though he gets rejected after apologizing, he never stops. He continues pleasing my mom, or sometimes us until we all get reconciled. I'm really thankful to have that kind of dad. I'm really blessed to have a godly dad.

And I'm happy to say now that I'm back and ready to serve God like him. All the lessons he thought me, I will always remember. I thank God for the blessings He gives my family. Although right now, we are experiencing some problems in the family but I know God is always there for us and He will never leave us. 

I want to say to my dad.. that even though we are not there to celebrate your birthday with you, my love will always be there for you. Thank you for the love you have shown me and made me feel that I always have someone to lean on. You were so patient with me. You never failed to show your love to us even on our difficult times as a family. You were always there for us to remind us of God's love, never losing hope. Thank you for being a great father to my brother and I. Yes.. we are getting old but our love will never change. Like what you said, for devoted Christians, to die is to gain. Its hard to understand for others but I know Christians will understand that. Thank you for everything daddy. I thank God, He gave me you as my earthly father. I hope you will always remember that I love you so much. I hope you read the 2 pages letter I left there in our house and use the key chain I gave you. Its actually a couple key chain but I decided to give it to you because I know that you will never leave me and it won't be wasted :) I love you so much.

You know dad... I pray that someday.. I will marry a guy like you :)

With lots and lots of love,

- wingingi 

While I'm Waiting

After I have heard this song, I've come to realize that I'm not really the only one whose struggling about the waiting for God part. Its really hard for most of us especially on our present generation where most of the teenagers are "too" aggressive already and "too" expressive. But remember.. God called us to be different from them. We should go against the flow of this world who has rejected God. Its been always a struggle for Christian teenagers. But God said..

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

Ecclesiastes 3:11

He wants us to live a holy life for He called us to be holy. It might really be hard at the start but as you grow in love with our Father, little by little, you will learn how to wait joyfully and fruitfully to the Lord. It might be your biggest struggle but God is always with us. All you need to do is to pray, ask for wisdom :)

For many of us waiting is one of the hardest lessons to learn. I have discovered that one of the best ways to wait is to ask the question: "Lord what are you teaching me through this?" -Phil Moser

I have read a book titled "I Kissed Dating Good bye" by Joshua Harris. He is senior pastor in Maryland who kissed dating goodbye during his younger years. He waited for God's perfect time. His book is about how and why we should wait for God's time though its hard especially nowadays. God wants us to spend our whole singleness for us to serve Him full time.. without any distractions. The right time will come, let's not anticipate too much for that time for it might create frustrations and other unwanted feelings. Let's enjoy serving the Lord while we are still free. The time will come. As He promised, He made everything beautiful in His perfect time. All we have to do is wait for that time to come. There are some lines from the book that I really like and learned from it of course.

"Deepening intimacy without defining a level of commitment is dangerous. It's like going mountain climbing with a partner who isn't sure she wants the responsibility of holding your rope. When you've climbed two thousand feet up a mountain face, you don't want to have a conversation about how she feels 'Tied down' by your relationship."

(4) Counterculture Romance: 
Five Attitude Changes to Help You Avoid Defective Dating
     1-Every Relationship is an opportunity to model Christ's love
     2-My unmarried years are a gift from God
     3-I don't need to pursue a romantic relationship before i'm ready for marriage.
     4-I cannot 'own' someone outside of marriage.
     5-I will avoid situations that could compromise the purity of my body or mind

"One of the saddest tendencies of dating is to distract young adults from developing their God-given abilities and skills."

I can't put all since its really a lot but for struggling christian teenagers or young adults, I really really recommend this book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris. But of course, we should still focus on our Bible and meditate on it everyday. I want to end this blog post with a verse in the Bible :)

Guard your heart above all else, for it 

determines the course of your life. 

Proverbs 4:23

godly him

Dear ______,

You know, I've been praying for you ever since the day I've met you. I never expected that I would like you.. just the way you are. You didn't catch my attention at first but as time goes by.. yeah its obvious what happened and what is happening. Its not the time right time to say these things but I just want to pour it out here and I'm hoping you will not read this XD. I just want to express myself, not on you because its not the right time, but just here in my blog though.. its public? Lol. Only few trusted people knows about this anyway so its okay. I don't even know if you know(?) But I don't want you to know about this yet. I just want to say from my heart that you really make me happy and what made me happy more is that you are a Christian as well. Do you know.. even the most handsome guys out there come near me, but knowing they do not know God and what Jesus did for us on the cross, turns me off.  Looks are not really important for me but.. syempre bonus na rin yun haha! Well, I really hope you will not be able to read this and you don't know my blog so I might not as well reveal my blog too publicly. Its really a blessing to have you in my life, for always being there. I pray that God will really bless you more. God knows my heart and He knows everything yet He tells me that its not the time to awaken love :) He wants us to spend our singleness serving Him full time without any distractions. He said He will make everything beautiful in His time. So I want you too to trust Him, our Father :) I really thank God for being able to meet you. I pray that you will always be there and I pray that you will grow more in Him, falling in love with our Lord more and more like how I feel. We should not be contented on what kind of relationship we have with God right now, we should strive to go deeper and deeper. I know that God will use you mightily and He will bless you so much. We are loved by the Lord, not because of what we have done but by who He is. I just want to thank you for everything and for the coming days and years. 

Confused

There's a feeling inside me that I just want to go back to Japan right now. I feel so stressed here but not that I don't want here anymore. Maybe I just want to relax in Japan since its cold there right now. I want to share the Word to my Japanese friends as well... most Japanese I know are atheist. Its really sad. I'm going back to Japan this year's October. 

There's something about here that I just want to run from. I just can't tell what but its something that I don't want them to feel that's why I want to get away from them so it will not be too hard for them.. I don't want them to struggle too much. I want to know my very purpose in His kingdom and I know soon, He will reveal it to me. I want Japan to be known as a Christian nation, not as an atheist nation. And if ever the time comes that I have to go back to Japan, I know what I'll do with the guide of the Holy Spirit. I pray that God will use me to share His Word with my Japanese friends and by faith will spread. But then, I'm still deciding and thinking very..very.. hard if I'm going back to Japan to continue studying my course there this coming September, starting of classes in Japan. I'm still confused though.. still praying for it. Maybe I will know when I get there on October.. maybe I can decide when I get there. I'll be staying there for a month or less, maybe its an enough time to think things over again, carefully.

I just want to get away... I just want to be far..
I don't want ___ to ___ too much.. ___ be strong ne :)

change of plans

There was a sudden change of plan about our vacation in Japan. We're going on October instead, on my semester break para mahaba ang bakasyon haha! Nahihirapan na talaga ako magEnglish lol. Fine, tagalog nalang haha! Ayun, october na daw kami pupunta ng Japan pero kami lang talaga ni mommy since busy si daddy masyado sa work niya nung mga times na yun. Ibig sabihin mas maha-habang bakasyon. Wee! 

I want to go to this place so baaaaaaaaaaad. 

Tokyo's Namjatown

Namja Town! 

 餃子です！gyozaaaaaa :D

カルビ餃子～  

楽しいそうですよね！まじです・・・日本に帰ります。いぇす！笑

I'm so excited. Its been years O.o 

So, still I'll have my birthday here but my parents' gift for me for my 18th birthday is a trip to Japan so I guess its more than enough. I really want to go back to Japan... Nippon! :D

もう一度

千代・・・もうやめてください..や、やめてよー いやよ.. やめてよぉ～本気にしちゃうよ。やっぱり痛いじゃん。ねっ!（´口｀*）うわぁぁぁ～ん

18th birthday in Japan

I'm gonna celebrate my 18th birthday in Japan this year. Its a gift from my mom. In my birthday, only my mom and I will go to Japan. Its kinda sad 'cause we're not complete but its okay since I have some friends there to celebrate with. I'm so excited! But I'm only gonna be there for 5 days since I still have classes and I'm gonna go to Japan the whole weekend only, and some school days :D

Manila then stopover at Tokyo then to Okoyama, Japan ♥

3 dark days

I have this struggle in the past few days. It was the time I really lost my communication with God because of that. Yes, during those days I felt so lonely and I don't have this happiness I usually have. Today, I asked God to get me out of that and I really don't want that.. something. I tried so hard to get off my own, but.. I really can't without God's loving hands.. I felt so down, so sad. 


During those.. dark days.. I saw something while I was lying on my bed. I saw let's say.. demon while lying down in my bed. I was really shocked.. yeah.. I got scared at first. It really woke me up. I was thinking.. why am I doing this, deep inside I know its hurting God. Then on, I'm still struggling but then I tried very hard to listen to christian songs. Yes.. it was hard because of what I'm feeling. I told God I don't want to be in this situation anymore and I want to overcome this. It was really a struggle, days before my VW. I thought it was the work of the devil to stop me from going to that important christian event. I woke up and starting praying hard about my struggle. 


Today, I had overcome it. I don't want to go back to those days again. It was really scary. I remembered how life is without God. I guess this struggle also had a lesson that will be useful in my life. Thank you Lord for Your mercy and grace! :)

Guarding my heart

Recently, I was praying for this certain guy. I don't want it to go over more than that. I want to see him just as a brother for I know its not yet the right time. Before the end of the youth service here in Jeddah, some girl told me that God already showed her who is the guy for her. I was shocked 'cause I didn't know God could reveal the guy even though its not yet the time. I was so amazed. Ever since I heard that testimony, I started praying for my Job 29 man. Of course, maybe a little, just a little, I asked God to show me who he is or just somehow show him in my dream. 

The other day, I was sleeping at afternoon. I prayed to Him again about that. That's not what all I'm praying for ha~ lol! Its only a small part of my prayer. Then I slept. I saw in my dream that there is this guy who will post something about _____________ secret :p basta! Then.. it was really on my mind even after I woke up. Hours later, I saw this guy who posted the same thing that was on my dream. Immediately, I asked God if he was the one. I was surprised, he is. I dreamed of him many times already too while praying for this certain guy. Of course, I don't want to assume that he's the one. Its just one things I can't forget knowing that it was from God. But still, I'm going to continue to pray for him. And in case, its not really him, I know God has someone better. Share share din haha! Oh well.. not yet time, heart still guarded! :D

Old Blog

I just saw my other old blog which was started 2009. It was my first blog but then I decided to make new one since I forgot the password of that account lol. I don't want to see it anyway, that blog. Its full of depressing and sad posts from my past. As far as I could remember, I started to write on that blog when I was broken-hearted. Its so funny when I look at it right now. I felt really pathetic while I was reading my old blog posts on that blog. I guess I was really too young that time and I haven't had my priorities set that time that I was really dependent on that someone. I still have lots of regrets from my past but I know God healed me already and He has given me another chance. I just remembered my past and what I was doing before when I saw my old blog. I don't know how to delete it since I can't remember by password. Oh well, past is past. Good bye to le past :) I don't want to live there anymore 'cause I know God has better things for me in the future. I'll just see my past as lessons and some things I should not do again. I don't want to be too stu..pid again. I really thank God that He got me out of that situation. I haven't told anyone the whole story of that thing and I guess only God and I will know. Its really depressing but I know God is always there for me. God is the hope of all hearts :) Thank you Father for giving me a new life and new godly relationships I will really enjoy. I don't want to live the way I used to be. I want to be Yours forever! I want You to give me that godly guy that I will someday marry, although I don't know if I have met him already or is yet to come lol! Well, I want to fix my eyes on You while waiting for Your time. Thank you Daddy God! 

Daddy's Girl

Currently, can't sleep right now.. nalulungkot talaga ako.. mamimiss ko talaga daddy ko. Maiiwan kasi siya dito eh :( Grabe super talaga.. naiiyak ako. Pinapatulog na ako pero di talaga ako makatulog. Lahat sila tulog na -_- ang hirap kasi talaga. Nakakalungkot pero with God kaya ko to. Kaya to, gambaru yo! hehe

Future Godly Husband

Dear Future Husband,

I love you already & I don’t even know who you are yet. I love you now because I know that because you’re my future, you’ve accepted me as the person that I am which has always been the only one thing I truly wanted to find in a man. I know that you understand me & all my craziness, from the mood swings, to the jealousy, and through all my randomness. You see the beauty in me, even in the moments when I don’t see it in myself. You tell me I’m pretty on those days when I feel like I’m not. You’ve listened to me speak about my insecurities and the reasons behind them without judging me or ever getting tired of me. You’ve been there. You’ve made me stronger, more confident, happier… You’ve made me complete. I know that our love will be true & I know that the moment I meet you, I’ll know you’re it. I won’t need to search for my other half anymore because you’ll be right there in front of me. I look forward to the day when I finally have you here with me. I’ll be sure to keep you happy any way I possibly can. I promise to be the best wife. I’ll cook for you, I’ll clean, I’ll give you rub downs on your long days at work, I’ll listen to you, I’ll motivate you, I’ll watch every basketball game & football game without interrupting you, I’ll let you have your time with your guys, & most importantly I’ll love you til the world ends & through whatever problems we go through. You’re all I need in this crazy world. I can’t wait til the day I have you.

With Love,
Your Future Wife ♥

strawberrytelle

Japanese Lunch

 My daddy! We ate at Benihana yesterday. Its a Japanese restaurant near our house so we decided to eat there for lunch. It was a celebration of all of our birthdays since we will not be all together on our birthdays this year. We are all apart on April 17, July 11, July 29 and August 18. We all have our own businesses on those days so we can't be together on those times. But still, I know God is with all of us and we can be happy on our birthdays even though our family is not complete during those times :) 

The last door was our room. I just came from the toilet and I decided to take a picture since I find it cute and its been so long since I've seen this kind of.. I don't know what to call it haha! But its really cute for me and its so Japanese lol. Red all the way O.o

Miso Soup

Vegetable Salad with Japanese dressing

This is Japan's famous miso souuuuup! This soup is so so so delicious! 超美味しかったです！これが欲しいですよ～好きです。 Its really really yummy, I'm craving for more -_- 

This is a vegetable salad with some Japanese dressing. The taste is really unique yet so tasty. I even wondered if its healthy  but its really really good! 

Our main course is here!

He's the chef whose going to cook our lunch! :D

Mushroom and Ginger sauce

Heart shaped Japanese fried rice <3

Salmon Fillet~ yum!

Hibachi Steak

Why do Japanese food taste good?! Hahahaha I really really love to go back here. How I wish I could find more Japanese restaurants when I come back to Philippines tomorrow. I'm so excited! Hehe :)

Back to Philippines

Well, today is my last night here in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia. I was born and raised in this country. Its kind of weird for a Japanese - Filipino girl to be born and raised in an Arabian country but I'm proud of it. I've met so many great friends and great people that has been a big part of my life. I'm thankful because even though I grew up here, I was raised knowing Jesus, what He did for me on the cross and why I need Him in my life. I'm a Christian. My dad is a pastor and my whole family are serving God. I'm very happy. 

Tomorrow night, we will be off to the airport for our 1am flight. My dad will be left here in Saudi Arabia since he needs to do some important works that he can't leave just for a month vacation. Its really sad that we will not spend the whole summer with him and we can't celebrate his birthday with him on the 17th of April. I made a 2 pages letter for him and a small gift inside the envelope and planning to just leave it somewhere in his cabinet. And on his birthday, I'm gonna tell him to find something inside his cabinet and open it. I hope he will not read this? haha! Well.. that's my plan so he would not feel very lonely on his birthday. It may be sad but I know God is always with him and He will never leave my dad. Its the 2nd time I'm not celebrating his birthday with him. The first time was last year when I was in Philippines for college preparations. Time really flies so fast, I'm on my 2nd year in college this coming school year and with God's grace I will graduate from UST at the right time. 

I'm happy and sad now. Happy because I will be able to come back to Philippines to meet my church, college and high school friends. Sad because I have to leave this place and my dad for the sake of my studies. It may be hard but I know I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me :D I know I can do this by His grace even though most of the times I feel lonely. It will pass. I just don't know what to feel right now. Mixed emotions -_- 

Philippines, I'll be back! See you and I'll feel your hotness uhhhhgen lol

Despite of that, I still love you and I will always come back to you ;)