Stress

These days.. I've really been thinking so much. I got a lot of things inside my mind. I am not really happy these days. I'm finding for something I don't know. Maybe I really want to go Victory service soon or attend the Thursday service when I get back to Jeddah. I am really thinking a lot right now. I just want to stop and just sleep but I can't because it might affect my future. I need to study hard and get good grades, not only for me but for my family as well.

Now.. I don't feel good. I don't know why. I don't like myself getting attached to people easily. I really don't like it but I don't know how to stop it. So right now, maybe that's one of the lessons this year. I wonder how will I change that attitude. I want to change it. I am so sensitive and I don't like it also. I need to change these feelings of mine. I should not be sensitive and get attached to people easily. I should just guard my heart and my mind and stay focus on my goal.

Lord.. help me remove these attitudes. I really don't want it. It might sound good to other people but for me its not really good. Lord.. I really feel sad.. I am really like this right? Someone who gets sad with no apparent reason or maybe having something in mind that really bothers me. I have to stop thinking too much and have some time for myself right? Like going to spa... but its expensive. I think going to church is the best! I want to go hoooooooome! I am really stressed. Many people are contributing to my "stress". What should I do? I really don't know. I really don't know what to do. Lord.. please guide me. I want to wear a smile always and not have this thinking about a lot of things always. Please guide me Lord. Help me.. I will do my best also. I will do my best.