Blessed Family

I have very happy because all of my family are Born Again Christians! I really feel happy. My brother is telling me a lot of things lately about how he is growing with God like hearing the angels beautifully sing while their praise and worship part. I want to hear them sing too! Lately, in church, during praise and worship.. I feel God's touch in my heart.. especially the lines of some songs that really strike in my heart that makes me really really cry that I can't stop it while praise and worship. I want to experience more Lord! I want moooree! I want more of you Lord! I want to hear what my brother heard! Lord.. I can't express how thankful I am for having a family that believes in Jesus Christ. A family that introduced me to You Lord! I am very thankful and I think this is the most important thing in my life that I should focus more. I don't need to impress people anymore! I only need to impress our Almighty God because He reigns now and forever! A God that will never change! Everything in this world will fade and go away but God's words will never fade! He will never ever change and will never forsake us! God is a merciful and forgiving Father! I am so proud of Him! I want to serve Him more and offer my talents to Him! I will Lord, guide me along the way Lord! I want Lord to dedicate my life to you! Only to You! Thank you Lord for everything you have done for me and my family Lord! Thank you for the blessings You always gave us. Thank you Lord for providing our needs everyday! Thank you Lord for being our God! Thank you Lord for giving Your Beloved Son to be crucified on the cross just to save us from our sins we have since birth! Thank you Lord for loving us first! Thank you for everything! Thank you Lord so much that even my life is not enough to thank you Lord! You are so Great! You are forever the Kings of Kings and the Lord of Lords!!

No Classes!

We have no classes today! I don't know what holiday it is but I only know I don't have to go to school. Yey! I am so happy. I am going to MOA today to meet my high school friend. I have to give something to her from her mother so we will meet there later afternoon. I am going in one of the cafes there to study. I wonder where should I go there but I only want to get out of the house right now. It's a shiny day! I pray that it will not rain today. When I opened my eyes today 6am, I prayed to God thanking Him for this day and prayed that today will be a good weather. IT IS! Thank you Loooooord! I can see the sun again! Its been a long time.. almost. But it is really good to see the sun. I am going to study later. Study harder! I am going off soon! Take careeee! God bless :) 

みんなさん、気おつけてください！じゃねー！

日本大好き

I reaaaaaaaaaaaaally want to go to Japan now!! If only I am sure it is a safe place.. well honestly, I am really scared of the calamities happening in Japan so I am somehow afraid to live there for good. But I guess it is still the place where I want to live. Even though I am not a full blooded Japanese, I really love Japan so much and I am very proud that I have Japanese blood. After not studying Japanese in school anymore, I tried very hard to study by myself since I went to other country to continue my studies. In the country I stayed, I knew no Japanese people there so it was really hard for me. English is okay for me but sometimes it becomes hard especially about the deep words I don't usually encounter. I really wish in going to Japan someday next year or anytime. My aunt is willing to let me live in their house in Okoyama which I guess is far from Tokyo. I am thinking if I will finish my studies in Philippines or study in Japan. But I guess I will just have to finish my studies here although I wanted to study in Japan.. I have no choice. 

I really pray that God will bless Japan more and have more believers in Christ. Please pray for the continuous blessings and safety of Japan. Thank you very much for the people who prayed for Japan especially last March 11, 2011. We really really really appreciate it and are very thankful for the people who helped and prayed for Japan. みんな、ありがとうございました！今年も宜しくお願いします。

Homesick

I feel so homesick! I miss being with my family.. I cried a lot yesterday because I saw a lot of families here.. especially inside the elevator. I saw how much mothers or fathers care about their children by their sermons or by how they talk to them then I suddenly remembered my own parents so I cried. I really really really miss them but I should be strong!! Even this morning in school, I feel really sad that I don't talk much to my block mates but good thing they cheered me up by their jokes. I see some of my block mates doesn't really care about their parents and just disobey them. They do not care about how their parents' feel. It pains to see them like that. I thought how lucky they are to have their parents with them even up to college while in my situation, I have to be away from them in order to have a good college education. I do not want them to be sad and disappointed. I always want them to be happy and healthy including my brother of course. I feel sad when they are sad. I hope my block mates would give importance to their family and of course God.

I should also study hard! I should not petix anymore! I will buy books I need for tomorrow. Maybe I will first buy the PGC book because its cheaper. The Anatomy and Physiology book is kind of pricey but I'm gonna decide tomorrow what book I shall buy first. After Bio lab class, I will go to SM San Lazaro to have my foreign money change into Pesos and look for books I need in school. I hope I will have enough money if not then, I will wait for my parents' money to be sent in my bank account. I will give importance to my studies first. I am doing my best to not have failing grades and pass all my prelim examinations. I shall not let distractions disturb me(?) hahaha! I am going to study for Biology Laboratory later. I will search for some Powerpoint presentations since I don't have book. I will do my best!! 

未だ帰りたくない

今日はｐｈに帰りますけどね。

何だか悲しいなぁ。未だ帰りたくないよ！本当にーどうしようかな？なぜ今勉強しなければいけないの？冗談だ（笑）勉強しなければならない。頑張れているかな？何で頑張れるの？不安になることなんていつも。そこで頑張らないとあかん。今日は何だか悲しい。何だか行きたくないけど、仕方がないからいく。何がそんなに悲しいの？家族が懐かしい。さみしいよ・一人切り。ええええ本当悲しいわ！泣きたい..

今から、頑張るよ！怖いけど自分で決めなきゃ。私の進路だもん。去年みたいに弱くない。めげないわグチグチ言わない・・やるしかないもんね。がっかりと させるようなセリフねー諦めないでね夢を抱け諦めるな。諸行は無常さすべてを胸に受けて生きるさ。難しいけど頑張る～約束

NEW YEAR!

I haven't written in my blog for almost 3 days. I was lazy to write things on my blog that time. I was too busy enjoying and doing stuffs here. Its new year!! I don't know my resolutions yet but I'm not sure if I will put it here because it might be a little embarrassing. But this new year, I already know my real dream. Well, I will do my best to reach that dream. I will do my very very best and with God's guidance I can do it! 

Its my last day.. but my brother is more busy playing online games in the computer instead of going with us. Its kind of sad and I feel bad. But yeah, I don't want to think about that and just enjoy my last day here with my parents. We will go somewhere later to buy stuffs I will bring with me in the Philippines. I am not really excited and I feel really sad because I have to go back by tomorrow to catch up in my class on January 3. I will come 1pm and I will be late for the whole class that day. 1pm onwards, I still have class but my mom told me to take a rest and not bother to come to school anymore that day so I decided to just come to school on Wednesday. I hope teachers will have this hang over from holidays and not come to school to work haha! Yeah but I guess some professors are still going. I really have to do my best when I come back. Since I have a sure place to go after studying college, I should strive harder and not just petiks or relax on the corner. New Year.. I need to work hard!