Surrender

Hi there!

Its been a long time since I last posted here in my blog. I missed posting but here I am, posting again after a year. I haven't updated this blog for quite some time. I'm not sure if some people bothers to read this anymore but I'll do it anyway.

This has been a one of the toughest seasons in my life. Its like the Abraham-Isaac story where I have to give to God what is most precious to me just to prove my love for God. I admit that at first, it was very difficult for me because I don't usually do these kind of things. In tagalog, kung ano ang gusto ko, yun talaga gusto ko. Kindly get a Filipino friend to translate that phrase for you hehehe. But it was that way before so I was not used to give up things for God because I know in my heart that I haven't done that before. Yes my parents were Christians already since I was in preschool but I haven't really had a personal relationship with God until college. My years in college taught me a lot. I realized that I haven't really have a personal and intimate relationship with God. I only know about Him but I don't know Him personally which broke my heart. I thought all this time, I know Him but in fact, I don't. 

So this season, He was asking me to give up some things I hold on so dear. I didn't want to do it first because I asked God, "Why? This is too difficult." Its been two years since I held back just because I thought I cannot live without it, just because I didn't trust Him as much as I do now. I held back for two long years. I regret holding back for two years and not pursuing Him right away. I prayed about it and now I'm starting all over again. 

Hold everything in your hands lightly, otherwise it hurts when God pries your finger open.

I am in a place where I'm holding on to nothing and no one but Jesus. My will surrendered. My flesh dying every single day just to obey the will of my Father. I have gone through a long road before coming here and I am aware that there is more to come. There are more trials to come to test my conviction and my decision to follow Jesus no matter what the cost. It didn't come easy for me but by the grace of God, I have come to the point of surrendering every area of my life which I have never done before. I never trust the Lord this much. I want to trust Him more than I do now. I know that His plans for me are greater than the plans I made for myself. I know that as I surrender everything I have and everything that I am, He has me in His precious and righteous hands. There is no safe place in this world than in the middle of His perfect will. I do not want to live in His permissive will but in His perfect will.

I pray the same thing for you who is going through the same thing I do. I know it is difficult and it seems impossible to get out of this season but seasons come and go. Storms are not meant to stay in our life. Its meant to strengthen us and to draw us nearer to the Lord. Its the best choice to draw nearer to God through the greatest storms in our life than to run away from Him in unbelief that He make all things work together for good to those who love the Lord. It is His promise. Let us hold on to that promise so tightly like its all we have left.

Jesus, I pray for my dear brothers and sisters right now who are also going through the same seasons of pruning and sanctification. I pray that you strengthen their hearts with Your precious Word. I pray that You make their crooked paths straight as they acknowledge Your presence in their lives. I pray that whatever they surrender to You Lord, You will never leave their hands and hearts  empty. Your Spirit will fill their lives as if they haven't lost anything because Jesus, you are enough and you alone can fulfill our empty hearts. No man in this world can satisfy our hearts. Only the One who created our hearts could satisfy it. Lord God, we ask you to fill our hearts with your peace and joy. Sustain us through this tough season in our lives and I pray that your will be done in our lives, your will be done here on earth as it is in heaven. We want to prove that we love you Lord more than anything or anyone else. We love you  Jesus. We long to see your face and just be soaked in your holy presence. We are waiting here for you Jesus with our hands lifted high in praise. Your love never fails Jesus. Thank you for your grace. Thank you for your mercy is new every morning. Thank you for the cross Jesus. Thank you for your unconditional love for us. Thank you for everything. We love you. In the name of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, amen.

God bless you my dear brothers and sisters in Christ!