Dream

There's this dream of mine I had killed not so long ago but I guess its not so bad to pursue it again right? I haven't shared this to my friends in the Philippines. Back home, almost everyone knew what I wanted to be. 

I guess it not bad to pursue modelling again right? Back in high school, I didn't really liked it. It only started when my mom convinced me to join a beauty pageant. I passed the audition and during the process of preparing for the big night, I did a lot of modelling stuffs. It was 2 months of training so a lot of things happened in the process. I did appear in a fashion magazine. I did win as a muse for a few known basketball teams in my hometown. I did modelling for some small events. Those were the times I had come to realize that this is one of the things I want to do. Yes, I won in a few pageants and of course, I did not put my security to the decision of the judges.  My security was and is still with Christ alone.

Before joining the pageant, I was over 60 kilos. I was heavy for a girl, wasn't it? But yeah, during the process I lost weight a lot and I weighed around 43 kilos. I was too thin for a tall girl like me. (Now I weigh around 48 kilos hahaha I gained weight I know.)

Recently, when I came to Philippines. I was surprised with the eating habits of the people. I mean it in a good way. Back in high school, I was not really fond of eating rice. I learned to eat those when I got into college when my friends usually do so. I was depressed as well during my first months of stay here in the Philippines so apparently I gained weight. I killed that dream of mine because I thought that I'm not really something meant for that. I killed every desire of modelling in my heart. I keep telling myself I wasn't meant for it.

But one time,  when I was talking to God. He wasn't laughing at me all the while. All this time, I thought having those kinds of dreams were foolish but I stand corrected. 

Psalms 27:4  Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

 It wasn't really foolish after all. It will still not be my priority in any ways. My priority will always be serving God in all my days. It is just one of the dreams I want to pursue someday. And now, I'm on a trap in my school block since they are looking for a representative in Ms. PAN (Philippine Association of Nutrition) pageant. Without my permission, they wrote me down. I don't know how to get out. I don't know how will I react. But anyway, whatever happens, it is still Him to be glorified. 

18th of August

This Saturday is my 18th birthday and still.. I'm totally clueless on how will I celebrate that day. I still don't know what to do. Its just.. hard to plan and sort things out with out my family. I wanted all along to celebrate my birthday with them but since I'm here and they're abroad. Its no near possible. But I'm still thankful that I know I can still chat with them online on my birthday. I'm not really excited about that day. My friends are even more excited for me than I do. Its just that I don't really know what to do and what to feel. 

I really want to celebrate my birthday and make it a special and memorable one. I want it to be a happy day.  I want to encounter God on that day. Daddy God..

Red dishes

I don't really know how to start well but.. anyway, I'm 2nd year BS in Nutrition and Dietetics and lately I've been trying out how to cook different kinds of dishes.

Recently, I've been cooking spaghetti and macaroni stuffs and little by little I'm mastering it. A while ago we cooked macaroni with spaghetti sauce. First it was too sweet but I added a little salt just to balance the taste. I didn't knew it was like that. I just tried it and it worked. It was a gratifying experience. Kidding. Not really hahaha I'm just happy. I want to improve more but not just on pasta dishes but also in rice meals etc. The dish really tasted good and its almost finished. I don't have any picture of it but maybe next time I will.

One more week to go

One more week to go and my 18th birthday is coming up.

I'm still in shock that this day is really getting nearer and nearer. I didn't expect this to come so fast. I really don't want it to come right away. One reason is that I don't really know what to do in my birthday. I don't know what kind of celebration I will have. I'm missing my family more when I think about my upcoming birthday. Its really something that is worth celebrating with my family, especially. I wanted it to be spent with my whole family but yes, unfortunately, they're abroad and I have no choice but to spend it without them. It may be hurtful but everything will be fine. God is here. I have nothing to worry about. He is with me and it is enough. I know that He will always be with me and with my family there in Saudi Arabia. I'm really just thankful for their lives. I just love my family and I seriously miss them so much. Its been so long since I last saw them personally. I'm just so excited again. Thank you Lord for giving me such a loving and godly parents. Thank you for doing it all for me. Thank you Lord. 

This 18th birthday will not become special without God. Thank you Dad! :)

7 days!

Philippines

It is currently raining in the Philippines. It is not a typhoon but the rain is only caused by a monsoon. Though caused by monsoon alone, it surpassed the Ondoy typhoon that happened here years ago.

Genesis 8:7-12 is currently the top trend in twitter.
Genesis 8:7-12 is about Noah's ark. It is true and never a myth.
But remember in the succeeding verses.. God says in

Genesis 8:21
And the Lord was pleased with the aroma of the sacrifice and said to Himself, "I will NEVER again curse the ground because of the human race, even though everything they think or imagine is bent toward evil from childhood. I will NEVER again destroy all living things."

God is FOREVER FAITHFUL to His promises. His love never fails. We may fall short most of the times but He never will. His grace and love transcends anyone else's understanding. Why should we fear? Why are we worrying? Where is the faith that God looks for in each of us? Do we pray with faith? Do we pray just for ourselves or we pray for the sake of everyone? Faith is believing in something even though we are not able to see. Yet. 

John 20:29
"Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who HAVE NOT seen and yet HAVE BELIEVED."

Yes, the weather is indeed terrifying right now. It has affected a lot of people already. Some already died because of this unpredictable weather. Some are stranded in places and are unable to go back home. Some are worried about their homes. Some doesn't know what to do anymore. Whom can we go to? Whom can we get strength and comfort? NO ONE. No one BUT GOD! God is all mighty.. all powerful. Did you totally forgot about Him? Did you forget how great He is when He used ordinary people to do extraordinary things? Did you forget how He sent His one and only son to the cross just to die for our sins? Did you forgot how He loves you no matter who you are and who you have been? Did you forget all His promises? Did you forget how gracious and loving is our Father? Please.. beloved. Don't be overwhelmed by the situation. Look to God. All we have to do is to go to Him. We should not be discouraged just because we don't see it right now. The sun will shine. By faith and by His pure grace. Let's pray for everyone's safety, comfort and strength for the affected people.

PRAY. Never underestimate the power of prayer. It is the simplest yet the most powerful thing we could do right now. God is good. He hears :)

Stand your grounds

Being a Christian doesn’t mean we are perfect. Instead, it only gives us a deep desire to be the person that God wants us to be. A person that will keep His commands and obey Him no matter what, whatever it takes.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean we are going to live a storm-free lives. Instead, we have nothing to worry about anymore because we know that God has won the victory. God will be with us all throughout the storms, weak or strong. It doesn’t matter if you do not have every ability to overcome those storms but by faith and through His grace, we are able. Availability is better than ability to God.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean everybody will love us because of our changed lives. Changed by God. As a true Christian, God told us beforehand that we, as His children, will face oppositions. In most cases, painful oppositions. We will be tested in various ways but together we should stand firm in our convictions. We live to praise and worship God. We do not live to please people around us. We should place our security in God’s hands. As the Bible clearly states, we should stop trusting ourselves for salvation. Our good works will not save us. But only through His grace and love. Salvation is a gift. We only have to willingly and joyfully receive it ONLY from Jesus Christ.

2 Timothy 2:11-13 

If we died with Him, we will also live with Him.
If we endure, we will also reign with Him.
If we disown Him, He will also disowns us.
If we are faithless, He remains faithful for He cannot disown Himself.

Storms are present in our lives. Storms come to test our faith and to help us grow spiritually. We learn to trust in Him more. We learn to look at Him alone. Sometimes, there are storms that almost drain us in the inside. Storms that cost us a lot. But do remember that storms come and go. It may stay for a long time but it will not last forever. God is preparing you for He has a great plan for your life. God will not let you handle things you can’t. God is reaching out His helping hand. His heart is more loving and gracious that transcends anyone else’s understanding. Indescribable.

Being a Christian is not as easy as it seems to be but.. in the end of age, we all know that everything is just worth it. Time will come that God will return and take us with Him and rejoice in the heaven. Isn’t it wonderful? Isn’t it exciting? Stand firm in faith. Stand your grounds. He will return.. soon.

Isaiah 43:1-4

But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
    O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
    I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.
Others were given in exchange for you.
    I traded their lives for yours
because you are precious to me.
    You are honored, and I love you

I rise as You are risen

Declare Your rule and reign

My life confess Your Lordship

And glorify Your Name

Your Word it stands eternal

Your Kingdom knows no end

Your praise goes on forever

An on and on again

No power can stand against You

No curse assault Your throne

No one can steal Your glory

For it is Yours alone

I stand to sing Your praises

I stand to testify

For I was dead in my sin

But now I rise, I will rise

As Christ was raised to life

Now in Him, now in Him

I live

 Beneath the waters (Hillsong)