An Encounter with the King

Last night, I've attended youth service here in our area. Its the same youth service (JAM - Jesus and Me) I've been attending when I was still in high school. Now, I'm studying in college in Philippines so of course, I'm not able to attend there any longer. We have a main church here in Jeddah, Lorimi (Lord Reigns International Ministries Incorporated). They hold services for all levels and I've been attending kids church since I was in grade 2. 

Last night, it was their last youth service before summer vacation so I decided to attend although I still have that "jetlag" from my flight from Manila to Jeddah. I heard a lot of changes that happened in our youth church. My brother told me almost all of the youth there have these gifts of the Holy Spirit and they are using it. Before, it was not like that, it was like a normal service but now it was different. While praise and worship, many are laughing (holy laughter), speaking of tongues and a lot more. When I attended last night, I was so blessed! And since I heard that, I was so hungry for it.

We went 2 hours before the service starts. I talked to a girl who has a gift of prophecy and many more. She suddenly told me to go with her in the toilet. When we were in the toilet, she started shaking. She said feel the holy spirit, he's here. Then minutes after, the King...... spoke.. through her.. I was so amazed that I cried so hard.. hearing the exact words from Him. I can't say the exact words He said but this is the way I remembered it.

"my daughter, it is I, your Father. Do not fear.. remove those doubts! Do not fear! It doesn't come from Me! Do not worry about your future, stop worrying about your future, it is in My hands. My daughter, you are special. You will  help Me save more souls. And I have blessed you so much, I will bless you more. I love you so much my daughter..I love you so much"

All I am is Yours

I'm longing to feel His presence again lalo na during praise and worship services pero I believe na hindi lang dapat during those times, ofcourse during quiet time mo rin. I've been busy these days lalo na't finals na. I don't want to lose time for Him and I want to make my time more available to Him for He never fail to give His time for us. Well, He never lost time. Sobrang nakahinga na rin ako ng maluwag since patapos na ang finals and this time I want to make things right. I've been so busy with my studies na nakakalimutan ko na magspare ng time for Him. Ayoko ng ganitong feeling, parang mabigat na parang feeling mo wala kang uuwian na kakausapin. I want to spend a long quiet time with Him and God-willing tonight. Ayoko na tlaga ng distractions lalo na paggaling sa world. I'm so sad 'cause I always make HIs heart break. I always fall short. Lagi ako nafafall sa temptations in different ways. Ayoko na talaga nito. I want to make things right and God is God of chances but even though He's a God of 2nd chances, we should not abuse His grace and mercy.

I want to make things right with Him. I want to make everything right in His eyes. I want to be an obedient princess of God. With my own abilities, I can't but through Him, I can do anything :)

Once upon a rainy thursday

Its raining kinda hard right now here in Manila and I'm still at school, particularly at the library again. I just finished my psychology final exam few hours ago and now I'm studying for tomorrow's theology finals. I don't really know what exactly to study yet. I'm not sure if I'm gonna go home right now or later because if I go home now, there might be a heavy traffic on the road especially at Taft Avenue.. ughh

Nosebleed na ako :)) Last day na bukas ng finals! Weee! God-willing mapasa ko lahat ng exams ko. Tomorrow, may youth service sa Victory Malate. First time ko aattend ng youth service dun since lagi ako umaattend ng youth service sa Victory University Belt. Sobrang nakakaexcite, uuwi muna ako bago magservice para makapagpalit. Ayoko ng nakauniform haha pero pwede rin. Ay ewan! Bahala na kung ano magustuhan kong suotin bukas. Basta ang alam ko, isa nalang finals ko bukas at tapos na! Pero di lang during this week dapat may faith, dapat in all our lives meron syempre! Kaya hindi natatapos ang faith week :"> 

Ayun, uwi na rin ako mayamaya, baka naman bumaha na masyado at mahirapan na ako makauwi XD God bless everyone! 

- babaeng nagbloblog sa library ng UST

Lunch Break at UST LIbrary

Andito ako sa UST Library ngayong lunch break.. suppossedly searching for articles about our Theology lessons later 4pm to 5pm (last class woooo!). 12 palang naman ngayon kaya relax relax din, pahinga pahinga XD sobrang nakakastress tong linggong to tska next week for sure. Pero this will all end! Summer is so near! Weee!

FInals na namin next week! Parang excited ako na kinakabahan.. I'm having this problem about Chemistry kasi eh.. so ayown pero I believe that God is always there for us and He will never fail to save us and show HIs love for HIs children :"> I pray that He will give me wisdom and excellence! For me, my UST Lifebox family and all thomasians! hoho pray pray din :-D

Alis na ako, magkakaron na yata ako ng katabi dito sa internet section sa 2nd floor.. baka mabasa niya tong mga tinatype ko, nkakahiya you know :-)) Pray for me! Thank youuuu so much! May God bless you always! :-)

18th birthday frustration

Every girl dreams of a birthday party on her debut but I guess even if I want to, I can't..

First, my family is not here with me in the Philippines during my birthday which is on August 18. My parents have  important business in their workplaces and my brother needs to go to school since the day of my birthday is no holiday.

Second, I'm worried about the money that will be spent for a one day celebration of my 18th birthday. Lots of people are telling me that having a debut party happens only once in a lifetime. I get intimidated sometimes but I don't know.. I'm really worried about the financial status of my family even though they don't tell it to me straight. I can just feel since these days.. I can see them posting photos of some of our stuffs.. and I saw with captions that they are already selling it :( it only means one thing.. you know it..

Third, I can have a debut without my family here but it will be so...sad... I didn't get to dance with my dad... say the things I have inside my heart publicly to my family and some friends.. But I guess even if I will not celebrate my debut, I can still tell them how and what I feel..

I'm so frustrated.. I see a lot of girls.. or more appropriately called ladies, having fun on their debut parties. Having lots of pictures with how they prepared their party, how they prepared for the place, how the celebrant had photo shoot with her different outfits, how there are photo booths on the venue and how people celebrate her special birthday with her. I want to have one too... But I guess I'm asking too much.. :(